I just need help and encouragement

I'm skitso-affective, I have what I don't know what else to call but dark times and can feel myself slipping further into one. I'm afraid. The voices are so loud and keep saying to hurt myself. I'm fighting it, because I'm still "here" enough to know what's happening, but I can't forever. It's like I'm being pulled into the darkness. I'm just so scared. Im not trying to seek attention or fuck up someone's day. I just need someone besides the voices in my head to talk to me, to see what's happening. I'm so very very afraid right now. I'm sorry.