For years I’ve had a “feeling” and even dreams that I won’t or can’t get pregnant. I have spent my adult life preventing it and when the time came to try it wouldn’t happen. I’ve tried to push those thoughts away but they’d creep back into my head at random times.

Now I’m 6 cycles into TTC (I know, I know it’s not that long) but I’m wondering if this may have been a sixth sense kind of thing. I don’t want to spend a whole year trying just to discover I can’t. I’d rather know right now so I can start working on details for adoption or fostering. Since I’m only 30 my doctor told me I had to wait a year but it’s my body shouldn’t I be able to say “Hey I want you to run the tests and see it my body is even capable of making babies”?

I’ve kind of had a calming/excepting feeling this week over it. I want children and I would love to be able to give birth to them but if not I’m ok with that too.