I lost my baby. I wasn’t even that far along....only 5 weeks 2 days. But I am so heart broken over this. We have been trying to conceive for almost 13 years. I never thought it would happen. Then one day, my period (which came like clock work), never showed up. I decided to take a test and of course it said pregnant. I was so ecstatic. For one glorious week, I was walking on clouds, making plans, starting a nursery, thinking about the day I would finally get to hold my sweet baby in my arms.

Then on Tuesday, I went to the bathroom and wiped and saw blood. I was scared but I read somewhere that it was fairly normal in early pregnancy. But the bleeding got worse as the day went on. I finally called the doctor and went in for labs. They confirmed today that I had a miscarriage. I am so heartbroken right now. Why was this taken from me? What did I do to deserve such pain? Millions of women have healthy babies and I can’t even manage to have one. I just don’t get it. We are decent people. We have good jobs, own our home, keep to ourselves. I do everything I can to keep my body in good health (I am a diabetic). I just don’t get why we can’t be parents. I just don’t understand how every single person in our lives has managed to have children but not us. Why not us?

But mostly I want to know why was I given something only to have it be snatched away? This world is cruel. My life sucks.