It is hard not to think about TTC and let things go. I decided that I'm not gonna try hard this month: no tracking, no symptom checking, no worrying. And then my DH says he want to try harder during fertile window this time. Well, ok, let's try. Then we fight about a stupid thing on the first day of fertile window and it's a second day now and I don't think we're good today. So yeah, obviously not trying. And I'm just sad and tired of getting even slightest hope and then having it crushed. FML