Sometimes I don’t want to come on here because I read stories about women getting married. Women going on with their boyfriends... I’m happy for them, I really am. I’m just sad for myself. I’ve been in two unhealthy relationships and had babies by both men. I’m scared to open myself up again. I’m scared I’m not meant to find love again. I’m scared for when my babies grow up and won’t need me anymore that I’ll be alone. I guess it’s silly how I feel...