SEX AFTER MISCARRIAGE

I had my miscarriage on 10/26 and it was the most scariest things that ever happened to me in my life, I had it naturally no pills D&C nothing went back to my Dr and he did a vaginal and confirmed the MC was complete which I’m so happy about no further treatment needed. Now I am 45 yrs old and after all of this I don’t want to have sex anymore I’m actually afraid of ever having intercourse again. I’m so damaged from this almost if someone was raped I know that sounds horrible to say but that’s the only way to compare it as far as being scared and petrified, at my age I don’t want birth control pills nothing. Is this a normal way to feel? Or am I mentally damaged for life. 😩