I feel so lost I need support 💔

My bf broke up with me lastnight. I made a fool out of myself he knows I want him so bad . I cried my eyes out in front of him & he was rubbing my shoulder with fake remorse it didn’t feel genuine at all it sounded like he wanted me to shut up and gtfo there already.

He told me he needed space that I was being too much and wanted to be left alone and I kept begging him and asking him if we could pls just work things out n I promise I wouldn’t bw th way I am and that I could change.. he said he will think about it but he wants his space..

I know he’s already made up his mind. I cried for hours in the parking lot screaming in my car wishing I could just die:( this hurts so bad to know that the one person u adore love and want to be with the one ur obsessed with has nothing left for you and wants you to leave him alone. This is so hard.

He treats me like shit yet I want to be with him I came off so needy and crazy lastnight that I made myself look 10x worse than I already looked during th last days of our relationship :( he blamed me but it’s bc he wasn’t giving me any attention there was no communication, nothing. He cheated on me in the past & kept bringing up how I went to the club without him and accused me of cheating there ... he is such a narcissist:

I can’t even function properly lastnight I couldn’t sleep I woke up every hour thinking about how I could have done things differently I’m throwing up and not eating at all I don’t have an appetite my mind is going crazy and I just want to disappear off the face of the earth it will break me and tear me apart if I see him with another girl. I deleted all my social media and blocked him ... I need some support I really feel like dying! ;(;(;( Iv cried out literally all my tears and I feel like staying in bed all year and crying

When I left he said “I hate when u cry” (so fake) and then said let me know wen u get home ok ... he usually does and if I don’t he will txt and ask if I got there ok, we’ll lastnight it took me like 3 hours n it’s only a 20 min drive home from where we were bc I stopped at a parking lot to cry and 3 hours later I never got a txt from him.. he doesn’t give a shit about me it hurts so bad my heart hurts I have never experienced this much pain in my life from another human being. He never even gave me a hug or nothing while I cried he just sat there And when I got home I was going to txt I’m home but I finally snapped out of it and realized he doesn’t give a shit if ur home or not he was only trying to be nice in th fakest way possible it wasn’t real nothing was real with him ;( I just turned my phone off and went to sleep 💔💔🖤