Feeling emotional

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So I’ve been taking makena shots and there’s a very high chance I’ll make it to 39/40 weeks until I get my scheduled c section. With my daughter I was 35 weeks and I’m already past that. I’m not used to feeling like total crap. My son was 40 weeks but that was 12 years ago and I don’t remember much. I’m just so ready. But I want to make it to my scheduled sec. so I can have things according to plan. Everything is just making me so emotional