After multiple ultrasounds and blood draws it was confirmed that my baby stopped growing at 6+1 . Waited for 4 more weeks for my body to stop pretending as if i am still pregnant , but no luck . On friday we called our doctor and scheduled d&c tomorrow .

I am tensed about the process . Having multiple questions about general anaesthesia , how long will it take , is it going to be painful after waking up .. ???

Apart from all those minor thoughts . " my baby is going to leave my body tomorrow " . Whom i dreamt dailyy to hold , to kiss , to cuddle and feed . I just want to cry as loud as possible to god to hear me .

My family thinks i am scared about the procedure.. NOOOOO .! I JUST WANT A BABY .. yes i am scared about getting pregnant again , will i conceive again ??, will i have a full term without complication . ??Will i ever hold my baby ... ?? I just dont know where to talk .. how to cross this phase of life .

My first pregnancy and my first ever hardest phase in my life ..