I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and 8 months a little while back and I’m crushed. It was a mutual breakup and neither of us wanted it to be over, we just knew that it was for the best. We met up, we talked, we cried and then right before we left we hugged one last time and cried. It might very well be the last time I ever get to see him. Truth is I’m still in love with him and I want my best friend back. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever endured and I miss him so much. I don’t think I’ll ever find a guy like him, he was kind, compassionate and handsome. I lost him forever, and we’ve cut off all ties on social media, so who knows but I don’t think we’ll ever see each other again. I can’t imagine a life without him, and I want to move on but it’s so hard and the little hope left inside of me keeps telling me to hang in.