Men and porn

Okay so my boyfriend watches porn. I know this because I’ve found it on his iPad a couple times.. and it really hurts my feelings. Partly because I had an ex that had a porn addiction and he was also a bully that really ruined my self confidence. And also because it makes me feel like I’m not enough. I’ve made digs and told him I’ve found it before and now he deletes his interest history- to which I flipped out about as I said that just gives me more reason to worry! So many of my friends say I shouldn’t be bothered as it’s natural etc... but surely I shouldn’t just put up with it when it hurts me so much? That’s unhealthy! I asked him last night to not watch it anymore and he just sort of laughed and I’m not sure he took it seriously. He said well send me pics then for when I’m away at work! Which only once a week.... And I said I have before but he deleted them as his mate had to use his phone for something and he panicked.. and plus I’m pretty sure he’s watched it while having me as an option anyway!! Plus for someone with low confidence, it’s not very fun sending a picture just to try to stop your man from looking elsewhere.

Sorry for the long ass post but I want to know if anyone feels the same and if someone can just tell me I’m not mad and I won’t be asking the ridiculous by wanting him to stop? 😣🙈

I do trust him in the aspect of I know he won’t actually cheat. But still. I want to be the only woman that ever gets him off!? 😂