This hurts

I'm in the gynecologists office in the waiting room right now and have an appointment to get checked because I had some discharge from my left breast a few days ago so that's getting checked as well as getting my first pap smear done. I've been ttc for a year now and seeing all these pregnant women hurts so much. I'm glad they were successful but I wonder why that can't be me with a child.😭😭😭

Edit: They didn't do the pap smear for some reason. But I am being sent for an ultrasound on my breasts this coming Monday. Does anyone know if they're sending me out of caution or if being sent usually means something is wrong?