Can’t do it anymore

It’s now been 3 1/2 years that my husband and I have been ttc baby #1. Month after month test after test just always negative. My heart can’t take anymore breaking. I’ve become depressed and always ask myself why can’t it be our turn. I cry all the time because it hasn’t happened. I now might have PCOS which is just the cherry on top. It’s become bad enough that I don’t even have the urge to try or even really be intimate anymore. Period is supposed to start in 2 days this is the last month I tried. So I guess we’ll see but I’m not holding my breath. 😢💔