Everyone gets emotional. Today I’ve been super emotional, I felt like talking to my bf about what I was thinking but he was super tired so i told him to sleep. I was still very consumed in my thoughts so I decided to write them all out and think about the words I’m putting on the page. I wrote as if someone else was going to see my writing and judge it but I still wrote everything i felt.

I wrote A LOT of things and discovered a lot of emotions I have. I learned a little bit more about myself if that makes sense. After I write and let out all my emotions I’m having in that current moment, it all goes away. Once I finish writing and get up for instance this time I washed my face and got ready for bed all those emotions disappeared. But I have them recorded on my laptop.

Idk what my point of this here is I guess its to write down your emotions because it can help you find yourself.

Here’s a bit of what I wrote summarized:

Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one in the world that thinks and feels the way I do but I know that’s impossible because there are so many people in this world. I know my boyfriend probably feels the same way I do but of course he does! That’s why he’s my boyfriend. I just feel like life is so lame. Life is boring and everything is temporary except love. True true true love and even then ... you never know. Smoking, partying, was never my scene. I drink sometimes because the buzz feels nice, I’ve never smoked but I’d probably like that also I just idk I never really really ever felt like doing it and it’s kinda like dang I still haven’t smoked so I don’t feel like breaking the streak you know? I’m crazy.

I just feel like I have no purpose in life and does anyone really have a purpose? I’m in college, going to be a nurse, I’ll have a good life.

I don’t mean to be depressing but this is how I think and I am positive but realistic. I just feel like I’m the only one who thinks like this no one is ever this raw with me other than my bf.