I'm a full time student in final year and I've been in and out of therapy for a few years thanks to depression and anxiety. I have done healthy diets, been the fittest I've ever been, exercised and socialised and partied, done herbal supplements, briefly gone veggie, meditated, drink herbal tea every day. I've done everything I have been suggested to better my mental health and I'm still terribly unhappy.

I have three essays every week lately and I stay up all night working and writing them. I haven't been sleeping properly and for the first time in months I've had no energy to exercise, or socialise. I've given up alcohol and I barely message anyone anymore. I just try and survive college and I feel like nothing is ever going to get better. I go to therapy twice a week and it helps a little but I still feel so low. I spent my weekend with my boyfriend and I still didn't feel a tiny bit better. Ideas of death have been popping up in my head and I'm so stressed and scared about the amount of work I have to do to finish college.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I really feel like I've tried it all to be happy and listened to a lot of advice and I'm still so unhappy. I despise college but I am getting a degree because I need to and my parents paid for it. Ive cried every day since Friday multiple times and I feel like I've come to a breaking point in my life.

Does anyone have any advice for me.