I was always forced to go to church as a child.. i wasnnever allowed to stay home unless i was sick.. I believe in the Bible whole heartedly but I went through some hard times through my teenage years that made me really question my place in the world. I don't feel like I belong and I don't know how to belong in the community I want to be apart of. I struggle with sin but doesn't everyone?

Ever since I turned 18 and I got that freedom to say "NO" to always going I just haven't wanted to go because I don't know how to be apart of the community. I used to be so outgoing but I was teased so heavily that I'm so paranoid about literally every little thing I do. I'm afraid to be judged by others. How do I fight this? How do I get through this? I'm almost 23 now and I want to go back to church but I'm so nervous.. I've gone a few times here or there in the past but I can't make myself stay... do I need a new congregation maybe... a place where I can start new? Idk...