The truth to ttc

Laying in bed at night and crying so hard you have to gasp for air but also trying to do it silently at the same time so I don’t wake my husband up. The truth is, ttc has been one of the most heartbreaking, stressful things I’ve ever done. My heart breaks into a million pieces when I see a negative. I try to convince myself I see something, when I know there is nothing there. It has really taken control of my life because it is all I think and dream about. And that’s the truth. My heart hurts. 💔