Dear Jay,

Find me

I know I fucked up

Please find me. I'm so fucking lost. I cant keep living like this. Talk to me! Please. I need you.

Ive been doing what you did to me to other girls. I normalized the pain. I hurt Dee, Zaria, Liz, Yadira, Ailenid, Paola, and others. But none of them fixed what you broke. I thought I could learn to understand Why you hurt me over and over. But I dont fucking get it. Why do I always go back to you? Why. You never did shit for me. You fucking killed me. All you did was help me through my addiction and help me cope with my assults but you broke me in a way nobody else did. And you did it constantly. Yea every time we fucking broke up I fucked your friends or just fucked around with them. I used my body to get my way. When we broke up I sent my pics to whoever. I didnt give a fuck. I felt nothing for so fucking long bevause of you. I waisted over a fucking year of my fuckimg life. I was so fucked up all the time that I dont even remember much. Days are blacked out.

Why the fuck do i fucking love you so damn much.

Come on

Come back

I dont care if you keep hurting me. I just want you back. I cant. Oh my god you fucking killed me. I'm dead inside now. When I had you at least I had somthing alive in me for you to kill. Please. Jayleen. Please come back.

The songs. Oh the songs:

Selfish

Eres Mia

"Put your head on my shoulder "

Fairytale

Etc.

Those girls I went through mean nothing. I need you. Yes you Jayleen. The girl who killed me.

Jayleen I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry please just come find me.