I have 3 kids, ages 10, 8 and 3mos. Having the new baby just about broke me, my Spirit and my Marriage. Shit has been hard! I had my son in high school and his Dad is a total deadbeat. My second child, my daughter, I was Married to her Dad and he was murdered... Totally tragic. She doesn't even remember him, she just knows his face in photos and videos we share. He died 2 weeks before her 1st Birthday. My new Marriage came with a new baby! I was in a bad relationship, and my ex did a crime I was present for, and because I chose not to cooperate with Authorities I was charged too. I did 4 years in Prison for this Man! So I'm Married to a great guy now, and we pop up UNEXPECTEDLY pregnant. I hadn't had a baby in a long time... 8 years, so I totally started over. And let me tell you... This child has tested my patience many times! We have laughed, and cried even more. She's crying, and I'm dying and crying with her. I still have not slept well. Lol. But, having loved and lost SO MUCH TIME with the people and places I love! And been in Prison with young women who have lengthy sentences or Life sentences, I have to check myself and remember how lucky I am. How grateful I need to be. Sleeplessness has tested my Marriage, sex is hard now because I swear this baby has a radar on Mom and Dad when their trying to sneak away. This Man is good to my 3 kids. They all love eachother. I'm lucky. I'm Blessed. I'm freakin overwhelmed and I don't cook Dinner every night. Sometimes I don't even get to shower! I never put on my makeup anymore. But I am alive and I am doing better. Appreciate everything you have Ladies, because I'm constantly reminding myself to do the same.