Whenever you see couples getting pregnant, or declaring that they are officially “trying” you assume that it is/was an exciting, but normal period of time leading up to the positive test. Or at least that’s what I assumed. No one ever told me that every month while trying to conceive is filled with this surreal feeling. It’s filled with anxiety and a bit of tense emotions. Then, at the end of the cycle month, you begin to pray for your period to not come. You pray that this month will be the month. Then your period comes and, at least in my case, so does the depression. Trying to conceive is a roller coaster of emotions. Especially when you see women getting pregnant without even trying. It’s frustrating, stressful, and anxiety ridden.

I am so blessed to have this man.

We decided to take a month for ourselves, no stress of TTC, no meticulous tracking. I have a doctor’s appointment in the beginning of December and I hope that everything comes back okay, but if it doesn’t, I have the most amazing partner to do life with. He keeps me motivated, and keeps my head up. Just trying to find the good in everything ❤️