feeling shit about myself 😪

lydia • mummy of 1

so im 9 weeks pregnant (so not really showing but bellys harder & bloated) and i had my first midwife appointment today.

bearing in mind ive always gone up and down and up and down with my weight and have struggled with an eating dissorder before and even when people wear telling me i looked unhealthily thin and i was so tiny that i couldnt have periods anymore i was in the “healthy” range.

i got weighed today and got told my BMI was 32 (which is the highest it has been and im aware im abit overweight now) but what hurt is i didnt even get classed as overweight i got classed as OBESE.

all photos are same timeframe and same weight