I was 23 weeks pregnant when my husband and I chose to terminate the pregnancy due to medical reasons. There were very low chances of our baby surviving after birth and we didn't want them to suffer. My D&C occured in June.

I am pregnant again and am 2mths along but still think of our baby. I use another app to track our pregnancy and it shows what the baby looks like each week. I flip to week 23 and just cry because we were so close to the end. Our baby didn't look like a little alien, it looked like an actual baby at that size, just smaller. It would've been the size of an eggplant. I go to the grocery store and pickup an eggplant and I'm just devastated all over again.

Even though I'm pregnant again, I still get sad with all my friends posting pics of their newborns.

Am I ever going to be okay? I can't seem to enjoy this pregnancy because I keep worrying the same thing will happen. How do I get through this?