Finally going to try again.
This past year has been very difficult. My SO and I suffered through 2 miscarriages, 1 in January and 1 in June. After the last one, my SO decided he was done trying and didnt want kids anymore. So we stopped trying. My sister had a daughter in July, a few days before our 1st child was supposed to be born. My heart was broken as I wanted to be happy for her, but couldn't be because it reminded me on my baby. Today we saw my sister and her kids, and my SO held my niece for the 1st time since she was born. Well something about holding her made him change his mind. Every time one of us held her, he had this big smile on his face. On our way home, he told me he is ready to try again. I am so happy. I have a 2 year old daughter ( with my ex husband) and I am hoping she will have a sibling by the end of next year.