Boyfriend of nine months doesn't satisfy me. The first time we had sex was six months into the relationship. At that time I haven't had sex for seven months and for him 9 months. The sex was good he got me off. But when we have sex again I just don't feel anything. I feel awful that I have to fake it with him and a couple of weeks ago we had a fight and he tells me he wants me to be straightforward don't beat around the bush. Always be completely honest with each other.

So three nights ago we had sex and again I felt nothing. I got the courage and told him to stop and I told him that it's not working. Wrong choice of words he thought I was breaking up with him. I told him he wasn't satisfying me and he tells me that when two people in love the sex shouldn't matter. But for a girl like me I want sex to be pleasurable for the both of us. We have gone different positions before and I faked it all. And he finish first and leaves me unfinish.

I feel awful and felt like I should have continued faking it, but he wanted more honesty in the relationship so I did that. He was angry and I was crying. I actually told him that I wouldn't want to marry for bad sex for the rest of my life. My boyfriend's size is a little below average and the guys I've been with were average and above. Obviously I couldn't say that detail to him. But I don't know what to do at this point. I can't avoid sex with him.