Gender disappointment

We had our morphology scan today and confirmed we are having a girl. I have a son already (3yo) and I feel disappointed to have a girl.

Family and friends are all excited we are having a ‘pigeon pair’ but I just feel sad and I can’t say it to any of them.

We found out through blood tests at 12 weeks it was a girl but I think I’ve been silently hoping they were wrong. Today’s ultrasound clearly showed a girl and now it feels more concrete a reality.

I don’t know why I wanted another boy. Something about generally knowing how to raise a boy already perhaps? I know I’ve never imagined myself having a little girl.

I don’t know how to feel better about this. Everything about the scan was perfect. She’s healthy and I should be very happy about that.

Just can’t shake this feeling of sadness and disappointment 😔

Update: thank you ladies. Voicing this in a safe environment had really helped. I’ll give it time and I’m sure once she’s in my arms none of this worry will matter :)