thank god for hard times

me and my boyfriend have been going through the shit pretty bad. i caught him lying to be about a week ago, which brought to surface so many other emotions we both had been feeling but not saying. i had started off in our relationship a very laid back person then out of nowhere became pretty jealous and kinda crazy tbh.... so we had an amazing talk about what we BOTH need to change. i almost had my bags packed all the way before this talk because i do not tolerate lying or disrespect in the way he gave it to me, but after hearing his thought process i feel like i’ve been nagging him constantly to change without actually ever changing myself... so now this is it, if it doesn’t work this time it doesnt work, but at least i will be able to walk away knowing I DID EVERYTHING i could and will never wonder what if. but honestly, i don’t think we will ever get there. things have been going so smoothly. and i got this text this morning and it just made me so warm. i pray to god he doesn’t feel the need to lie to me ever again because i won’t be able to handle it, and i pray to god i don’t slip back into my old ways. but this gives me hope 🙏🏻