Baby Blues hitting hard *update*

My pretty little lady joined our family on Monday night. We came home from the hospital last night. I did have a Csection, and the pharmacy was out of the heavy duty painkiller.. So I got stuck with some Ibprofen.. So the pain hasnt been easy. My 2.5 year old loves the baby. She is over the moon and is wanting to help a little too much. But my lack of sleep, my body pain has made me have no patience for my little toddler which breaks my heart. Its like word vomit, I just snap. I don't want to hurt anyone but I just reduce to tears 😢 in turn she comes and rubs my back and tells me it's okay.. Guys I'm just so damn sad... I can't pick her up. I can't let her jump around on me.. I'm losing it... And I just love them so much.. She deserves a momma who isn't like this.. I feel like a horrible mom.. I just wish I could explain it to her... This picture is them on the day they met.. And my heart is so full I cry when i look at it.. They're my girls.. Just please send prayers..

** I didmt know my there were so many kind people in thr world to say the things you all have said. It's been so hard to be strong but with support from family, friends, even strangers have helped me in ways you wouldn't imagine. I talked to my Doctor amd we are getting things rolling. I'm taking it day by day.. It comes in waves but I know it will get better. Thank you for all the love ❤❤**