Young mom

So I've seen a couple posts about this and wanted to share my story a little bit. I've always wanted to be a young mom for many reasons. When I was little about 5 or 6 I had a baby doll. One I loved so much I treated it like my own baby. My uncle didn't. He wasn't very nice to it and Everytime he'd pretend to hurt it I'd take it away and start crying. I'd cuddle it and treat it as if it was my own. When I was in elementary school we had a day where you tell the class what you wanted to be when you grew up I didn't even hesitate when I said a mom. It was the first thing that came to my mind. Some time later I found out I was going to have a little sister or brother. I was 7 turning 8 and was so ecstatic. I couldn't wait. I wanted to go to all of my mom's appointments with her to hear and feel and see the new baby. I was going to be a big sister again! We went to the first ultrasound and I remember saying "awww I can't wait until he or she is here" 9 months later I was taken to my grandma's and grandpa's with my siblings so mom could go have the baby. After she was born I wanted to go see her right away. When I got there she was crying because she was hungry. I wanted to feed her so I asked if I could (not knowing what kind of food she gets and my mom was breastfeeding). After they all came home everyone would hold her and love her and all I'd sit right there to make sure nothing happened to her. My mom would say she had to go do something I'd tell her to it's okay I can take care of the baby no worries. Mind you I was 8 at the time. Every time the baby cried I wanted to take care of her so mom didn't have to. If she needed a diaper change I was right on it. A bottle I was right there. Just to be picked up I was right there. I wouldn't take my eyes off her. 2 years later I have a baby brother on the way. This time I was 11 when he was born. I helped take care of him too. Helped bathe him, I fed him, changed him, help mom put him in his rocker. I was always there. I remember telling Mom I would sleep in her room for the night so I can get up with the baby so she didn't have to. Fast forward to a couple years later. I was about 13/14 and told Mom I wanted to be a teen Mom. I've always had baby fever. From the time I had those baby dolls to this present day. She told me I was not going to be and made very strict rules for when I got a high school boyfriend so I wasn't going to be that teen Mom. When my best friend got pregnant at 16 she was so worried I'd be in the same boat but I wasn't. To this day I am 19 almost 20 years old I still have super bad baby fever. I've done so much research to prepare for a child. I've set money aside to be ready for a child. I've even started trying for one. I'm also living on my own and paying my own bills. I'm an independent woman who is just ready to bear her young miracle and creation. I'm ready for my body to work it's magic and grow this incredible human being. I'm ready for my body to do what it has to for a human being to be healthy and grow and enter this world and you know what. I can't wait. Sorry this was so long I have no been able to share my whole story with anyone so it feels good to get it out there especially for people in the same boat as me.

PS. With all my friends and people I knew from high school getting pregnant it has made this baby fever a lot harder for me to bear with

Thank you for reading if you got this far. I hope it was worth it. Baby dust to you all!