I don’t know what to do....

C

My period is 10 days late. It’s is always on time like clockwork. I can pretty much tell you the exact time it will start. I have already taken 2 pregnancy test one the 3rd and 5th day I was late. I want to take another. But I’m so scared of the negative sign. I don’t want to see it again. I have seen it for 5 years and in 5 years this is the second time my period has been late but never this late before. I’m thinking about just going to the doctor. Maybe if he tells me I’m not pregnant and I got something else going on maybe that will be easier then seeing that negative sign. I really know I should stay positive. But really after so long my positive on getting pregnant is broke. I just have a broken body and I was learning to come to terms with that until this happened. Now I’m in a whirlwind and my brain is going crazy. Like why is it so hard to just go pee on a stick?? Uhh. Help me ladies #iknowimgoingcrazyrightnow #imusallyprettynormal.