I have been trying for a couple years and experienced 1 loss. I can't seem to motivate myself to get off the couch. I will spend the entire day on the couch watching netflix. My house hasn't been completely clean in a couple months. My amazing husband has tried to pick up the slack, but he works a lot, so he can only do so much. I feel terrible that I have not been doing my share, but I am mentally not capable of doing the things that need to be done. I have tried taking a break from TTC, but that only made things worse. I don't know what to do. I don't have the money for therapy, and I really don't think I would commit to going and talking to a complete stranger about the most painful thing in my life.