Flip flopper

Hey there! I have been fighting myself my whole pregnancy trying to decide if I want to VBAC. Honestly my c section was pretty great, but I know VBACs are better long term...I’m just terrified of labor and the unknown. I am currently 39 weeks and as of right now have a c section scheduled for next Friday. I think I am going to push it back because I did not feel “excited” when I scheduled it. Like I need to give myself more time to go into labor. I’m just really scared and feeling discouraged. I was checked at 37 weeks and still very tightly closed. I don’t think my daughter has moved down at all. I’m not sure if I’ve had any real contractions. I’m scared of waiting to go into labor and it never happening.