Since the middle of October I've been feeling just down.. I have no interest in anything, I get stressed out way easier, I'm more tired, and I'm more moody than normal.. Like if someone asks me a question I'll answer it but then they'll ask me the same question in different wording and it instantly pisses me off. Everything pisses me off.. When I'm alone sometimes I'll get really sad for no reason and start crying.. I feel like my heart is in my stomach. I feel a heavy darkness..

I've started smoking cigarettes and my drinking has increased. I don't know what to do. I hate feeling the darkness.. Can someone please help me?

Thought about seeing a doctor but all they care about is their paycheck...