Second guessing

I’m 13 days away from the point I was at in my last pregnancy where I miscarried. I’m constantly going to the bathroom to make sure I’m not bleeding and second guessing everything I am feeling. All the cramps that I know aren’t seriously unless it’s one one side or is extremely severe. I feel like I can’t enjoy this and I so badly want to! With my hormones all over the place I just can’t stop crying. I just really hope I’m meant to have this baby, and I hope I can eventually enjoy the pregnancy with just normal worries.