Im 19 years old rn

Since i was 4 years old i remember hearing my dad having sex with his girlfriends up until i was 17 years old as he went through a list of ex girlfriends. Its FUCKING disturbing. Long story short im staying with my mom right now who lives out of state for a few months and she has a cheating lying immature ass “ex” whos shes been with for 12 years, even though they are “broken up” and hes her ex. I really dont like him because of what he did to her and how controlling he is.

Well right now im trying to eat breakfast and i can hear them fucking. Moaning, bed pounding and wall shaking. Im fucking irritated. Theyre so fucking loud. I dont know what the fuck to do its 15 degrees outside so i dont want to go out. I dont have my car out here so i cant drive and im not asking her for her keys right now. This shit idf so annoying.

Id like to say its no wonder i treated sex so casually this past year sleeping with 12 men and being promiscuous even though i lost my virginity at the age of 18.

But of course i cant blame my parents for everything and im learning to take responsibility for my actions ad i grow older

But FUCK as i write this i have fucking tunnel vision. This shit is so disturbing 😭😭😭

Sex doesnt qual love and hes fucking taking advantage of her my mom id such a goddamn pushover

Adding: no its not her own damn home. My mom does not own the house nor does she pay ANY type of rent... my grandparents do.