bad school pictures experience

Im currently having a really bad panic attack. my school is really serious about school pictures o year book and I didn't know that I had the choice to NOT take them. So I took them and was really upset about it. I don't have the prettiest smile either, and im very insecure about my face, my hair was sort of a mess too. im currently in a deep depression atm so I don't much efforts into my looks anymore. so I took my picture and the lady took it, and looked at my photo and made a weird face when she seen it. and now I just realized I didn't have to take them. So im having a bad panic attack, I feel as if I can't breath. I know I looked bad, and ppl might see it and make fun of me and call me ugly, bc I get enough stares and mess talked about me already. I just want to go in a hole and die. this is gonna eat me up for a while. these were retake pictures too, bc I didn't go the first time. so now I can't retake them.