Help... please

Madison • ✌🏼

I know I have anxiety but Iv never been diagnosed. My boyfriends little brother recently passed away in an awful car crash. So every time my boyfriend drives home witch it a half an hour from in town bc he lives way out in the country. It scares me!!! I have anxiety attacks and I don’t know what to do. I try to take deep breaths but I can’t get the though out of my head of something awful happening! It’s worse than normal sense it’s only been a month sense his brothers death and it’s completely traumatized me! I mean I watched him die slowly for 5 days. I just don’t know what to do...