Okay... I know most of you will judge me for this and that this is supposed to be a happy positive place for women who are trying to conceive but honestly I don’t know where else to go. Everyone in here seems to always have each other’s back no matter what and I know I messed up big time but I honestly have no one in my life I trust enough to really go to about important things, especially like this, which is why I’m asking you guys for advice.

A couple days ago, a few of my friends and I went to a bar and got a little too drunk and of course one thing lead to another and we all ended up meeting this guy who wanted to come hangout for the rest of the night. I honestly don’t really remember how it started but after everyone went to bed the two of us got too carried away and he didn’t have protection and neither did I and I’m not on birth control... but we still did it.

I’m literally kicking myself in the ass sooo hard for this because I’m the kind of person whose always wanted to wait for a real guy I trusted to come along and then I would go on bc but I’ve never needed it which is why I’m not on it. OBVIOUSLY I WILL GO ON IT NOW... because there’s no way I’m letting that happen again but I’m sooo worried that this situation may extend into an even bigger problem and I need all the advice I can get on what I should do?!?

I’m sorry but if I am pregnant... I can’t have this baby😭 I’m in no shape to have a baby and my parents would probably never talk to me again. This is literally killing me and eating me up. I adore children with all my heart and have several nieces and nephews I wouldn’t change for the world because I love them so much but I can’t do this…