Scared

So not that long ago, I came to the realization that I was bisexual and it took a while for me to understand the differences between heterosexual, lesbian, pansexual and bisexual, and to understand which one “fit” me. Which one represented me best.

So yeah, I’m really happy to be able to proudly tell you that I am bisexual. But I just wish that I could tell that to anyone in my life.

My family is a pretty homophobic family, one that truly believes that any lgbtq+ member belongs in hell and are the representation of Satan himself.

And while I was growing up, overhearing these conversations didn’t really bother me, cause first I didn’t know anything about the community and second, I didn’t really feel concerned.

But now, I know that I am also part of that community and hearing them say these things hurts me, it affects me and no matter how badly I wish I could tell them, I still feel so scared of the reaction, of their rejection. Cause I know what they say and I sometimes tell myself that they’ll probably accept me since I’m part of their family and have been for so long, but then I realize that it’s all just false hope and they’ll probably never accept me, no matter how hard I try.

Idk, I just had to get this off my chest.. But I would really like to hear you guys’ coming out stories.