Over this crap!

So the beginning of the year we decided to try to have a baby. My periods have always been irregular. Nothing to major. Every now and then I would get a heavy flow. And blood clots. This year. Af did a number on me. My cycles were longer. Af lasted 3 weeks almost every month. Then I would spot for a week in one month. Now I haven’t had a period since September. Negative tests. I spotted once in October. Only when I wiped. And again this past week. One time. All I want is for my period to start and be over with. Or to be pregnant !