Keeping hope alive

at the beginning of this month I claimed my baby !!!! But I POAS n got a BFN Nd I almost started to post something negative. But u know what ... I’m really trying my best giving this tTc all I have . Nd it just didn’t work this month . I have to just say oh fucking well . It’s hard to admit that I’m only human n I’m honestly not in control of when I get pregnant n if I get to keep it .., but I’m going to stay positive Nd keep trying because eventually it’s going to happen. 12 years down lol Nd I ain’t given up .