Mental Health & Relationships

Im 24 and I just realized that I battle with BPD I was tested at 12 years old and they said I was borderline bipolar. I blocked it out when I heard that because I felt like it wasn't a big deal & I didn't want to accept it. I've never taken medication and therapy wasn't my thing. Now I'm 24 the last 3 years I was in an on and off relationship with a guy. This guy is homeless with two kids and I let him stay with me for a while on and off...we went through some ugly experiences when we were apart but never seemed to keep us away from eachother for too long. My BPD never crossed my mind I never thought about it until just recently. He kept calling me crazy and saying that he didn't want to deal with it...I understand hell I didn't want to deal with it either...but it took this recent argument for me to actually accept my disorder. And now I just feel confused as to why he's pushing me away when in the past it was ok...I was there for him and let him live with me, but as soon as I open up about BPD it's like I'm too much for him all of a sudden. I'm thankful that we had the argument bc I can accept and educate myself about it and manage it. I care about him and he said something about being friends but I get the feeling that he isn't very understanding and that I was just someone he could fall back on. Should I give him space and see what happens? Should I just let him go? I think the relationship/friendship could last now that I'm aware of what I'm going through and taking steps to manage my BPD. I mean he said I don't even deserve a chance with him but he gave me another chance anyways...which is even more confusing... after this recent argument we haven't spoken in a couple days. I explained to him that I understand how I've affected him and I apologized.