Older man wants to marry me - opinion on our situation. See photos

I appreciate any and all opinions and while I prefer not getting the negative bashing, I appreciate your thoughts either way. I won’t exactly make my decision based on your opinions but sometimes people looking from the outside can help add clarity to tour thinking.

So my situation is this:

I am 31 divorced with 3 kids under age 10, my youngest is 2. He is 48 divorced with three kids under age 18, his youngest is 13. I’ll add he just put his 18 year old daughter in college. Both of our ex’s cheated on us.

I was never the type to date guys you get than me or my age because I felt like guys my age thought I was too serious. But I have never dated or been with a mane a few years younger than my mother who is 52. If your wondering about my father , he was never in my life and at times I wonder if that why I want to be round older men but I feel that idea is overrated and I feel grossed out to think about intimacy with father like tendencies.

So he is smart, funny and he does seem young at heart. He listens to me, he always wants to know how I am feeling, he shared his feelings as empathizes when need be, he accepts and wants to be there for my boys, and he is probably one of the most emotional men I felt that matched how I am. Also, he has been there for me more than any man has in all aspects, emotionally, spiritually , financially and very affectionate. But I will admit I was very hurt from my ex who has pretty much made me lose the hope of marriage again and true love. Sometimes I even feel

That all men are pigs and will

Lie just like my ex. My ex was a sex addict and an alcoholic and it was a nightmare even trying to heal. I met this guy on a dating website almost 6 months after I split with my ex.

We talk everyday and I have become his best friend, he claims he loves me and he has been talking about marriage. We have been dating for a year and I do really like him but I told him I’m not exactly on the level he is on, even though I know that’s what. Y heart wants. My brain is saying something else as a defense from my past. But I know I’ll get through it one day.

Anyway , my battle is I don’t know if I am making the right decision to continue to pursue this relationship. We have our disagreements but for the most part we’re fine. A few concerns of mine were where we will be in 20 years? I will be just about his age now and I wonder if they will affect my social life because 50 is not old but he will be almost 70 at that time. I don’t mean this is a bad way, I’m just trying to see it in all angles. My kids are younger and I wander if he will be able to keep up with them as his kids are older. But he claims he is excited to chase them becAuse his kids outgrown him. Sometime I wonder what people think when they see us, because I look 10 years younger than my age, I have a baby face, petit athletic body, and I did model so I just have that exotic look sometimes. He is not your typical eye candy but he has a great smile and it didn’t matter to me because he was beautiful inside.

But I don’t want people to think I’m just screwing him or I’m a sugar baby etc. In fact I’ve only had sex with him 3 times the whole year. He doesn’t pressure me and we take things slow. I will add that he is not very endowed and his sex is not up to date when we had sex, he didn’t seem to know what he was doing. But he claimed it’s been 1 year since he had sex so he was nervous ? I was thinking because of age? Will it get worst?

Anyway I know with time I can and will love this person and I know for a fact he will be a great father to the boys as he is amazing to his kids. I know he does love me because he proves it.

But , what’s wrong with me ? Most women would be happy to find a man like this ... is it the age ? Is it my past pain or is it just still too early?

Should I take this and run - it may be what God had bigger for me ?

Any advice is appreciated. Thank you.

P.s - can you tell We have a large age difference or is it just me ? See photos.