I spent a lot of time last night and this morning on the phone. I've debated on it for a long time. Last night I called the suicide prevention hotline. It was very hard, and I cried the whole time. I'm actually still crying, but I'm still here. I'm still breathing and fighting. I'm tired, but that's ok. I think I'll survive.

Edit: thank you guys for all the love! I actually cried reading some of these. I've struggled all my life, but I'm going through the biggest thing I'll ever face in life right now. A few days ago I couldn't see past it, but support and kindness makes all the difference. I'm not going to stop fighting. I hope that everyone facing depression will find someone to reach out to, because we can make it through this together.