I’ll never be beautiful....

You know, I’ve realized today that matter what I do, no matter how much weight I lose, I will never be beautiful. I’ll still be a disappointment. I’ll still be stupid. I’ll still be annoying. I’ll still be unliked, unloved, and unwanted. I just hate being me. And yeah yeah, there is always someone worse off. But I want to stand on my soap box for a minute.