Vent (very long)

I want to vent to someone or something and this is my last place ( I have friend/family on all social media and don’t want to act out like I’m crying for help) but I’ve been single for 2 years now ( dated this year but we barley went out or did anything relationship type ) and since the holidays are coming up my heart has been heavy and stupid love movies is hitting a certain part on me .. I’m currently struggling with my weight and I always tell myself that’s the reason why no guy wants me, maybe for sex but I want more then that I want love, I want the bad days .. I also have a dentist appt to get 4 front teeth pulled out and I have a major overbite and I always say that plays a big factor into guys not talking to me .. I know it sounds silly but I’m working on body positivity... I’m also shy ( yes this is mainly why im single lol ) but my ex mentally abused me for over a year and everything I’m feeling I base it on my physical appearance.. I guess to sum it up is that I’m tired of waiting for a guy to come I feel like I missed my chance with someone and it’ll never fix