This is anxiety and depression...

This is me today. I have dealt with mental health issues since my teen years. I’m a 25 year old mother to a 2 year old. I’m an EMT who has had to turn to an office job for my family. I am 24 weeks pregnant. My husband works a crazy swing shift schedule at a local factory so I don’t get much help at home or with our son due to him being at work most of the time. I have been off of my medicine since finding out I was pregnant and it’s a huge struggle. My husband is on night shift this week and also got schedule 3 extra nights on his days off. My son acts out even worse than usual when my husband is on night shift and I finally lost it tonight.. I couldn’t hold in any longer. I’m tired. I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of feeling like a crap mom.. I just need prayers ladies. I will be ok. I know I will. I just need to get out of this emotional rut I’m in. Depression and anxiety sucks...

Edit: Thank you ladies so much for all of the advice and extremely kind words.. you all are amazing ♥️