I don't know if i can do this

One day late and trying not to get my hopes up. Ladies TTC is the hardest thing I have ever done. With every little cramp, I was laying in bed crying just thinking of waking up to AF. I have decided, that if she arrived within the next few days I'm going to take a break from all of this. All of the tracking, prepping and that dang two week wait, has overwlemed me. I want so bad to be able to tell him he's a daddy, and every month it's like mother nature just throws PCOS right back in my face. I can't keep doing this to myself, this wanna be mommy, is about to crack!!! 😣😭