Missing my boyfriend that I cheated on..

He’s in the navy and I cheated on him and I told him and we broke up and I haven’t talked since then.. I’m starting to miss him tbh. But he messed up to by talking to his ex girlfriend and having all these girls and girls nudes in his phone. This is hard to cope with.. what do I do. He doesn’t want to talk to me and he told me to never contact him again. The last time he spoke to me was about suicide..

And he has my nudes that I sent him for while he is away on his phone and I really want them gone.