14DPO and scared to test...

I am 14DPO and was planning on testing Saturday morning (16DPO). Since it is literally so close, I am having bad anxiety about the test being negative.. to the point I dont even WANT to test, I would be okay with not testing at all. I have had on and off cramping since 6DPO which isnt normal, and nausea at night, also not normal. Just super scared to test because if I am not pregnant, we will be taking 3-4 months off of TTC...😢