I don't know what to do

I hate that I miss him so much to the point I can't breathe. I'm so scared about my future, I'm worried I won't get my student loan approved. I'm scared I won't do anything with my life. I don't wanna be stuck all my life. What if I don't get anywhere with my life? What if I never met anyone again? Everything is just getting to me lately I'm so scared about the smallest thing. My anxiety level is so high. I just can't see a way out of this pain and hurt, it's just all building up. What if I can't do a degree? What will I do? I don't have any skills, I'm not good at anything. If my parents were to suddenly die I'd be homeless because I can't afford to survive. I'm finding it really hard to cope at the moment. I just can't stop crying and being fearful 😓😓